Hey Readers! I’m back! I’m sorry it has been so long since I’ve written. A lot has happened in my little world since my last post. And a lot is going on currently. I’ve finally maxed out on my dose of ADHD medicine, and it still isn’t lasting long enough. Time to move on to something different. And with everything going on, I really could use more focus!
I’ve been very pleased to see that my adult ADD (ADHD) Facebook page is growing at a steady rate. It’s getting the word out there about mental illness and adult ADHD, in particular. You can visit my page by clicking the link… MyAdultADDPage
Those of us with these ‘invisible’ issues tend to be the most isolated. We think that we are all alone and no one understands what we’re going through. Just because we don’t look sick, we’re treated as such. That’s just not fair. “It’s all in your head”, they say. “Why can’t you just snap out of it”, they ask. “Get your shit together”, they scold. That’s like demanding that a paraplegic get up from his wheelchair and miraculously walk! It’s just NOT gonna happen. Mental illness is a combination of biological and psychological factors. Chemical imbalances and non-existent neuro pathways cause chaos in the brain. Chaos that some folks live with on a day to day basis because they go undiagnosed. Diagnosis is key. Awareness is everything. Medication and therapy can help.
Sorry, for a moment there I thought I was writing on my page. lol Forgot where I was. See, right there, perfect example… ADHD at it’s finest, forgot where I was on the internet! I’m done. lol
I haven’t written for a while. I’ve actually had a lot going on in my life to blog about, I just haven’t had the motivation. And what is my motivation now, you wonder… I wonder too. Is it my ever-present need for validation of my feelings, or is it just my need to connect with others out there, like me, who have ADHD and feel like they are THE ONLY ONE.. The Only One to have feelings of emptiness that nothing can fill, the need to escape reality by any means necessary because that’s what you were taught. The Only One who feels that they are totally unworthy of the love that those around them give. The Only One who feels that a bad relationship is better than no relationship at all; or that ,once again, reality is just too painful too bear. The Only One who decides what is right and what is wrong in their life. The Only One who is left in the dark much of the time; The Only One who thinks everything is okay amidst a world of chaos. And The Only One who feels these feelings is me; because here, in my world, I AM THE ONLY ONE.
As I sit here in front of my laptop with my phone also open beside me, I wonder why do we really post all these memes and quotes and pictures to the internet? Because we want “likes” that’s why. I post to FB, Twitter, Instagram, Google+, and Tumblr (by the way, you can find me at all of these using my name karitaber), and I realize that the reason I post is because I want total strangers from all over the world to acknowledge and “like” me. I think I’m doing this for some sort of acceptance or something. Am I whats called an attention whore? Or am I just sad and lonely looking for friends? Whatever the psychological reason, I really do enjoy the internet and everything it has to offer. And I’ll continue to post and hope for the “like”.