A Letter About Life; Circa 1968

When my mother passed away in early 2008, I was left with all her earthly belongings. Fortunately, for me, she lived in a 650 square foot, 1 bedroom apartment. Everything she owned fit comfortably in a 10ร—10 storage unit.

And there it sat, for 5 long years, in an old blue Steriliteยฎ plastic storage bin, a 1-page, single-sided letter, with the most current school photographs of my 2nd cousins, taped to the back. When I say “current”, I’m referring to the 1968-69 school year, current.

As fascinating as the photos are, the content of this communication has given me a great sense of pride for the paternal side of my existence. The Selkirk side. Yes, I am related to Alexander Selkirk, (a.k.a. Robinson Caruso), and my roots are firmly planted in Scotland, but what enthralls me most about this letter; the candid look at what happened to my aunt’s immediate family that year…

From the death of a child, a terrible blizzard, and spreading illness; to fabulous trips, a political win, and a Nixon speech, this letter, sent to my mom, is a piece of American history. Life in 1968 was “disconnected”, in the best possible way.

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I Am A Hunter

We make our choices, live with the consequences, and embrace the lessons learned. I, myself, being an adult with ADHD cannot comprehend the very phrase I just ‘coined’. On the intellectual level where I “cruise”, there are emotional issues we deal with, almost always ALONE and ALWAYS MISUNDERSTOOD, (…we scream the wrong words, hence, we sabotage our OWN plight for a ‘cure’, [in ways that we JUST CAN’T EXPLAIN]). Wait! WAit! WAIt! WAIT! “Plight for a ‘cure'”? A cure for what? Ummm,
Hell-the-fuck Oh? (๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿป) We’re NOT sick, or ill, in any way, shape, or form! We are entered into this world hardwired for a civilization long-lost…. We are ‘hunters’ in a world where ‘gathering’ has taken over! It’s actually very sad, that people like me are dying emotional deaths on a daily basis. ๐Ÿ˜ญ I’m about to get REAL, very, very real… I ALONE, meaning, I conjured up the preceding list of things I longed to do, or did, WITHOUT ANY HELP, (professional or other)…. You’re in for a ride…
1. Overcame 27 yrs of undiagnosed ADHD
2. Recognized my own differences in thought process at 7 y/o
3. Asked for a Drs appt at 10 y/o, to figure out my issues. –to no avail.
4. Survived a horrendously traumatic experience at 4 y/o
5. Had a miscarriage at 16 y/o
6. Survived several physically abusive relationships. My physical scars are proof of my unsuccessful attempts to find someone to loke me for ME!
7. Six sons, several fathers, a stack of paperwork on each of them that’s nearly three feet high!
8. Medicine IS my passion, NOT nursing…. Medicine. As in D.O. at the end of my name!!๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ Received the “official ” MCAT study guide and practice tests, as a gift from my “D” when I got accepted into the University of Michigan, in Flint’s, College of Arts and Sciences. I was to be majoring in Biology and minor in Poly-Sci (my other interest). My goal? Michigan State College of Osteopathic Medicine.๐Ÿค“
9. Got bored one week before my first semester and enlisted in the United States Navy Reserve.
Ooh… This is getting looong. Please keep reading, it gets better…โ˜บ

Let’s pick up where we left off…
10. Was extremely sexually harassed by my recruiting officer, I mean, he didn’t whip out his actual penis, but the concrete mold of it, that was proudly waved in my face, was gross enough. Moments later, I was escorted into the office of Master Chief #$& (protecting innocent parties) where I was expected to maintain military-precise composure while I verbally gave my life, (and DNA), to the US Government.๐Ÿ‘จโ€โœˆ๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€โœˆ
11. Hooked-up w my Dr. (in his office, I was being “seen” for allergies).๐Ÿ‘จโ€โš•
12. Spent over 1/3 of my life as an “entertainer”, of the dancing sort.๐Ÿ’‹
13. Overcame alcohol addiction by counseling MYSELF in front of my bedroom mirror. ๐Ÿ™Ž
14. Beat a drug addiction that, on average, has a 80% fail rate, without the help of intensive treatment and therapy.๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป
15. Acquired 3 medical certifications, all of which, were ‘un-fulfilling’ to me.
a) CNA, b) MA (CMA/RMA), c)Phleb.
…blah, blah, blah๐Ÿ˜”
16. Buried both my parents.๐Ÿ˜ญ
17. 3 marriagesโค๐Ÿ’”โค๐Ÿ’”โค ๐Ÿ˜•๐Ÿ˜•Seriously, this is definitely tiring…I’m drained.
So, now you know. I always say, “Love me or leave me”. I can’t change who I am, a HUNTER in a society so catered to satisfying every whim of the GATHERER, that MY thought process appears strange. My brain is wired to comprehend, execute, and sustain ancient civilizations. I was born to make fantastic breakthroughs! ALL of the GREAT things humans are… is because of the people who were blessed enough to be born ADHD. We are the creators of the world we live in, though we take no responsibility for the demise of modern civilization.

A Dying Breed, The Cultured

Culture. adjective

*characterized by refined taste and manners and good education.*

It’s called being “cultured” and I want nothing less for me and my children. It’s about teaching them the basics of a PROPER existence. Teach them how to be a positive and productive part of society… Be nice, kind, have RESPECT for yourself and others. Example: say “please”, ” thank you “, and ” pardon me”, eat with a fork and start with the left one, put your napkin on your lap, wear a suit AND tie to a job interview, be very respectful to our seniors and listen to them(they are wiser than YOU!! They have “been there”), take GOOD advice weather you agree or not, learn from other peoples mistakes, save your money, live simply, avoid drama and chaos, always make a good first impression, pajamas are NOT ACCEPTABLE public attire (even at Walmart!), refer to your teachers, bosses, and clergy as “ma’am” or “sir” while in conversation, have something to offer, teach someone something, offer assistance when it’s needed, do things NOT out of obligation, but do things that are MORALLY and ETHICALLY right, you ARE who you hang with so choose your circle wisely, learn something new everyday, never begin a task unless you intend on finishing it, be brave ALWAYS (that which doesn’t kill us, makes us stronger), work until the job is DONE, not until you’re tired, go to bed at a decent hour, a good education is EVERYTHING and ALWAYS ALWAYS do what is expected PLUS a little bit more!

Why aren’t people teaching these values anymore? This used to be common sense.