Living With And Loving My ADD


At 27 years old, I was diagnosed with ADD. I was relieved to finally know what was wrong with me. I was never able to get myself going in life; in relationships, in parenting, in college.  All that spinning-my-stationary-tires took a toll and caused me great angst.  I was depressed, to say the least, and frustrated.  Why on earth couldn’t I get it together and be a productive part of society, as it seemed all my peers were.

A moment of realization occurred when I first started taking ADD medication,  the medication made me more mainstream, but they took away some of the positives of this “disorder”.  With one swift swallow of a pill, all of my creativity and out-of-the-box thoughts and ideas were gone!  Sure the medicine did exactly what it was supposed to do, but at what cost?  Do I want to be creative or calm, sociable or quiet?  Literally it’s like one extreme or the other.

At the end of the day, I have to be able to accept myself!  That was much of the problem; I was trying so hard to be more “mainstream” like everyone else; that made self-acceptance impossible. So now I’ve learned to love ME, ADD and all!

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3 comments

  1. You are managing a relationship with adult ADD and that is an accomplishment. I have not mastered that as of yet. I’ve been married, I’ve birthed two children that I was unable to raise as relationships, closeness and intimacy just escapes me. I have extreme creativity, eccentricity and perhaps even oddities. The medication that I take helps me to focus so that I am not going in five directions at once but yet standing still. It helps me to complete tasks and have a little focus if just for a minute so to speak. I was always different. Lived the majority of my life as different.

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